Saturday, January 23, 2010
today is a terrible day. just feeling very heavy the whole day. morning went to nus and work till 3. then took straight bus 51 to lavender and get the car. after getting the car. i seriously donno wer to go. cos i feel like going to fetch him from school, im afraid his bag very heavy. and this few weeks he have been very tired rushing out so many projects. i wish i could help him by doing some parts of his project. msg him asked him wer is her. he only tell me in school. and msg him again telling him i only wanted to go and fetch you. he did not say yes just asked me about the car. and so i went to park the car and went home. fetch yaya to dental. fetch her back. eat porridge. went for run. then went to fetch baby home. asked him later wer is he going. he din say. i asked him again. i think i asked him 3 times before he tell me he going to meet russell. i donno why. i just feel super terrible today. during my run when its going to finish. i cried again. keep crying. i donno what to do. i just want to do things for him like last time. is he waiting after cny before he have a clean break with me? why must he always drag? why? i love him.
