Saturday, January 16, 2010
Today i went to school. and came back. today i only ate sandwich for the whole day. today when im online and i also see him online, he did not came and chat with me. did he read my blog? and he decided not to chat with me? when i came back from school, i online and i saw him, i waited for very long, but he still did not chat with me, so i decided to initiate the chat. i was so sad when he's reply was yup man. why must he add the man word behind? i have to ask him qns then he reply me today. i don know what to say now. i just miss him so much. to the pple i told them abt my story, some felt the same with me. its so unfair that u did not give me chance. is our 4 years of relationship so easily break off? yes last time when i throw my temper saying want to break up before, but u know im nt serious. i just wanted to say sorry now, cos now i know hw much it hurts when the other party says want to break up. but u know im just throwig my temper. u know hw much i love u. u said i treated u too well, so u are guilty of that. but why am i treating u so well? cos i know i always throw temper at u, i know i have nt been good, so i wanted to treat u well to ' pu chang ni' . i asked russell, if ur gf treat u very well, will u feel guilty? he replied me saying why shd i feel guilty? i will be very happy la, my gf treat me so gd. then why r u feeling guilty? u said u feel guilty all this while just that u nv say. so does that mean that all this while u have stop loving me that's why u feel guilty? u said u love me still yet u wanna be single. why is this so? u love me yet u wan to be single? i don understand at all. but u don seems to want to explain to me. i don know why u can treat me like a total stranger out of e sudden. why? i love you.
