Sunday, January 17, 2010
today was horrible. i was so upset. i meet my group members to discuss abt our project and i simply don feel like doing anything. i just keep saying in my mind. dear god, please just give me abit more strength to finish the project, just abit more. and finally we are done at 5pm. went back home. do nth but only can cry to express hw i feel. when i realise im suppose to go and take rusti run pack its oled 6.30pm. im so panicked cos the email says only can pick up the bag at the allocated time. and they end at 7pm! oh shit. and its at simei! wad e fuck! i quickly took my bag and took a cab down. im so afraid its because he wants to go so much too. if without the bag then we wont be able to join the rusti run oled. thank god i manage to reach there before they left. after i took the bag i went back home by train. wasted twenty bucks! idiot. when im home im just waiting for the time to meet him as i feel that there's a need to talk it out. finally, we went to a place that we walked past before. the park. and i told him everything i wanted to say. and he too told me alot of things. i feel really hurt but im happy because at least he's telling me my problem. after so much talking, i think he still feels that he just wanna be single. im so upset, so afraid. nobody will understand hw i feel. but at least when we were talking, he hugged me. HE HUGGED ME. i missed him so much....... i just wanna hug him so much. i want to let him know, go ahead and rest. i will wait for the day u finally miss me and wants to be tgt with me again. i just want to be with you. i love you.
