Monday, January 18, 2010
went out and watch movie with him. we watch 'did u hear abt the morgans' at great world. before that he came and meet me at my station @530pm. went to zion rd hawker and eat. told him the bowl cracked and i asked him just pass it to the cleaner uncle. yet he bring the bowl all the way back to the stall that i bought it from and get a new bowl of soup for me. why must he still treat me so good. i just keep letting myself having false hope. he asked me whether want to eat cheese tofu not. i told him don want cos i cant finish then he said he can. and he went to buy. he knows that i like cheese tofu. we were crazy abt cheese tofu before. he asked me wad i wanna drink, i told him 100 plus, then he said nv exercise drink 100 plus not good. why?why?why? why is he treating me so nice? or he did not treat me extra nice, just that he's like that? maybe he treat all his other friends also like that. maybe i think too much. so we went to watch movie. its the first movie that i have watched with him that we never held our hands. never. not anymore. how i wish he would just come and hold my hands during the show. the show ended. and he asked me whether want to go eat or not. and we went to spize. ate prata. and went back. told him don need to send me home, cos he doesnt have the responsibility oled. and he said its a matter of principle. then i asked him so that means if its other girl u will also send them home? and he said those staying at seng kang he will not send. those have train station de he will. means if the girl staying at tampines he will also send her back. last time i don think that is he's reply. i think last time he will say, its their business. so he walked me to the lift, and we said goodbye. its no longer like last time. no longer. but now he will always wait till the lift went up then he goes off. he will looked at me till the lift goes up. whenever i bid him goodbye, i just feel so sad. no longer hugging or kiss to bid goodbye. its always sad. i always almost cried out. he msg me after that asking me to eat. i don know whether he's concern abt me that's why he asked me to eat or he's just feeling guilty that's why he asked me to eat. im sad. still very emo. still can just cry when i thought about him. or anybody that says sth that i can relate to him. almost everything i can relate to him. i really don know what i can do. i only can love him silently now. everything we meet i just wish to run to him and give him a big hug. i miss his lips. i love him.
