Thursday, January 21, 2010
today when i wake up, i received his msg again. i know deep deep down inside my heart im extremely happy. but i also know i cannot always deceive myself. if not i will get hurt deeper in the end. so went to nus and work. i seriously don feel like working. till about 3 plus then ate my lunch with haze. in the bus, on my way home i msg him. asking him not to give me hope since he have made up his mind and give me time to let it go. when i reached home at 7pm. i received his msg asking me whether want to have dinner tgt. and yes we met up. now whenever he asked me to meet and if im free i will just agree to it. i don want to be like last time. i just want to follow what my heart wants. so nth much. ate at abc market. he have been doing all the talking since we met up. i don want to fall deeper. im trying to control. but yet i wanted to follow my heart. aiya its very confusing right now. i don even know what's my relationship with him now. i don talk much during our met up and i don smile either. when we are walking to the bus stop he said the xiao ming joke. he just want to cheer me up. and he told me that he cant send me home as he have project to do. n i said im not expecting u to send me home. actually deep down inside my heart i wanted to tell u, don have to send me home cos u have a lot of project to do. and that's it bus came and i went up. nowadays he will always wait till the bus is gone or lift went up then he leave. so as the bus leaving i was looking at him. i love him.
